Finding You Own Howl
Jonathon Flaum’s first story is that of a pack of red wolves that were on the verge of becoming extinct in the 1970’s. The story followed one wolf, Mumon, on his quest to find his howl after losing it from being in captivity his entire life. Momun experiences trials and tribulations that he felt shameful of but was essential for his survival. At last Momun becomes one with the earth and finds his howl after being shot and killed by a fearful farmer.
I found the story of Mumon quite inspiring and motivating. I can relate to Mumon to his quest because I myself am trying to find my own “howl”, if you will. I, like every other college student, am trying to find my place in this world; my own mark on humanity. Fellow colleagues of mine are still unsure about whom they want to become when they get older; but, I have known for several years what I be. And I believe that I’m going in the right direction because what I want to become just feels right to me like I was born to become it; whether it be directing, editing, producing, or writing films, I believe that I am fit for one of those roles.
A quote that really resonates with me in the story of Mumon is, “The marrow of the deer’s bones was drenched in your howl. To find it again you must shed the shame you feel for being what you are. You are a wild animal and feeling shame for that is akin to feeling shame for being born into this world”. The reason why it speaks to me so well is because it reassures me that I shouldn’t be ashamed of what I want to become; not ashamed in the sense of being embarrassed, but ashamed in the sense of security. The field that I want to go into is extremely competitive and even harder to get a steady job in and it is almost daunting to think that my life after college isn’t a guarantee. I have a lot of hard work ahead of me and if I stick on this path that I believe I should be on it will all work out for me. I will find my own “howl” and fulfill my own personal legend.
The quote also speaks out to me creatively. My major, Video Production, is one-hundred percent creativity. Although you might collaborate with others on certain projects, you must have imagination coursing through your veins. And one way this quote speaks out to me creatively is that I must not be ashamed of my creativity and imagination; this meaning that maybe not everyone is going to love what you do, but as long as you are in love with it and you personally feel accomplished on what you have crafted there is nothing stopping you. You will find an audience that will listen to you and love what make and then will you find your “howl”. Then, will you find the meaning of your existence and that will set you free. Personally, I believe that I was born to entertain—to visually stimulate an audience to the point where they’re begging for more. I want to be the comic release of just one person’s tension, the look of excitement in just one person’s eyes, the goose bumps on just one person’s forearms, and the tear running down just one person’s face; if I succeed in doing so I believe that will find my “howl”. I want to invoke passionate emotion into people’s souls through my work of art, nothing more, nothing less.
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